Not all mothers are the same...

Why is it that parents can do whatever they want with their lives without thinking of the images they leave on their children, but watch out if the children embarrass the parents. I take it back, their is no family, my father left when I was 4. BUM !!! I know my mom tries her hardest to do the best she can in her life. I also know that she has had one hell of a bad hand dealt to her. But it comes a time in your life when you hit a "place" where you see what has happened to you, what has gone wrong, and what has led you to this "place" your at. You have ample opportunities to fix, mend, patch up the consequences of your earlier bad actions. She just does not get it or see it. She is in a big hole and has a great job, great personality to go with it, making good money. Yet that hole is bigger than it ever has been. I have always been "too old" for my age, always being the civilized one through all my families ups and downs. I have a lot on my plate right now, and when I need some encouragement and "motherly" love there is none to go around. She is more than capable of saying she is a great mom to everyone that knows her. Ask her daughters. The shit I have to put up with should automatically make me a saint. The details are to many and the story tooooo long. I am satisfied with just knowing that I know I got my back.

Life...

When you say it is simple,
It says - not as simple as you think!
When you say it is difficult,
It says - not as difficult as you think!
When you say it is beautiful,
Giving a healthy challenge,it says - are you sure?
When you say it is pathetic,
Making things easier, it says - chill dear.
When you say you know it well,
It will confuse you and say - you bet!
When you say - has anyone understood you still ?
It will comfort you saying, someday maybe you will !
That's life...

School could be better right now...

Okay so I am not one to really talk shit on others, just something that I think is crappy that needs to be disgust. I have 2 classes right now in school, an assessment course which is pretty cool. The other course would be great if it were taught just a little bit more coordinated. It's all very important statements and information about diseases and cancer but if they don't really know the answers how would I. They teach very unsure of what they are teaching. I am just glad this class is almost over because it will be a miracle who ever passes it. It has been a big mess this class. I feel sorry for the students who have near failing grades because who knows whats around the corner in this class. One more month to go, and then maybe I will be back to being able to do things not having to do with school. I haven't really talked to anyone in awhile because everyone wants to go out and I don't. I have a few priorities on my list right now, I am going to pass this shit even if it kills me. Failure is never an option for me, I always do good. It just depends if my heart is in it.